sometime i feel very hurt, very pain, very sad and so on. just out of control. y must let me think bak. i feel very very very very 'sam fu'. i keep find alot alot alot thing to do. i just wanna make my self feel better. bt it hard. not matter wat i do also no use. although i do things until 2 midnight i also cant slp. no matter how tired am i, i cant fall asleep. i cant slp well at all.

In school i keep laugh....smile.... it is that is my acting for cover my sadness? it is i lie to my self n say that i'm okay? dont worry. i wont cry in front of u all. n thanks for cheer me up. thanks for make me smile. bt i really cant smile n laugh. actually in school i keep laugh, smile n talk was acting. sry friends. i really dont want u all because of me then...... just dont worry me. n n n i wont kill my self la. just thanks for u all support.

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